My father’s demise in 2019 have transformed my life altogether. I was overwhelmed with frequent stream of emotions like sadness, anger, grief or remorse. It was overbearing and it started affecting my personal and professional life. My father was really dear to me and his absence left me grappling with a profound sense of incompleteness. This is when I started searching for meaning and solace in most unusual of places. A staunch atheist for most of my lifetime now started visiting temples, started reading scriptures, even my choice of books and music also started changing- the visits to spiritual places or readings of scriptures were not out of academic interest or reverence but I was more of a relentless search for a gateway to the absolute reality. What we claim to be reality is nothing but our interpretation of events and circumstances. This interpretation solely depends on individual intellect and emotional intelligence. That is the reason why 8 billion population experiences 8 billion diverse realities on a single planet.
Coming to the point- even my liking for psychology, psychoanalysis, biochemistry, philosophy and even astronomy started growing more profound. This entire endeavor unfolded the entire universe in a completely different manner. Gradually, I started realizing the universal nature of our existence. The preexisting sense of isolation and incompleteness started getting replaced with an indomitable urge for self introspection. Till then I used to define life and reality based on happenings and occurences around me, while more I started searching for meaning of life or death- I realized the malleability and futility of what we call life. I realized that reality is nothing more than our understanding or interpretations of people and situations around us. Prior to that, I was too focused to change my reality and situations around me. But the grief of my father’s demise followed by my search for deeper meaning of death and life revealed that I cannot change the reality by making external changes but rather changing inward through careful introspection and meticulous practice I can genuinely make myself more tolerant and accepting to external situations.
A minuscule shift in our perspective or interpretations changes our reality altogether. Later on I read the exact same information both in science books and spiritual scriptures. Even the difference between scientific and spiritual world is droll- one is seeing the donut while the other is seeing the hole.
I’m glad to understand and accept the futile beauty of life. This essence of transience confers us the opportunity for loving and careful self reflection. Enlightnment, Moksha whatever they call it- is nothing but embracing an equanimous state of mind amidst the chaos and delusion of what we call life…
Best wishes to all readers in their insightful self- exploratory journey.
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Disclaimer: Happiness or suffering has a lot to do with our consciousness and cognitive abilities. This article is an attempt to deep dive into the human consciousness by the author. From academic research papers, spiritual scriptures, science journals and interviews of different researchers of neuroscience and quantum physics, the author has tried to present his idea of human consciousness. It does not intend to hurt or discourage any belief, community, community, organization or individual. The study of consciousness has not yet been wholly included in mainstream science because science solely relies on evidences derived from sensory inputs, however consciousness is something beyond human sensory perception. Thus if you like the article or disliked it- we would love to hear your comments on it.
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